Sigh... Have been 'enlightened' today? Can say so as enlightenment. But realised that there's really too juch to consider before you promise that you can do the task or so... Come to think of it, I simply can't promise anything, somehow afraid not to meet expectations or maybe sadden them. Should I say I'm lucky or not? Not having commitment stuffs till now. Or not it's like so sad to know that I did not meet the expectations of so many people. Ask Alanna about some relationship stuff last night. But her answer make me know a lot... It's like something that I can't do. Haha. After all, it's something that I can't have anyway.
I felt sick too. Down with cough & running nose... So dumb... It's like you are like being high on drugs and you kep sniffing + smoking with 3 or more super choking cigarettes. Hate the feling. How I wish you can beak down human part by part to repair them & have them back just like MACHINES...
After all, saddened by all these stuffs... Only if, I can have everything I wished for.
